Loss of Myself

I am losing inspiration as the day slowly dwindles into night. Where's it going? Is it sinking back into the depths of my subconscious? Every couple of days my thoughts, that is my depressed thoughts, resurface and inhabit my mind for several hours of the day. Why is it that they decide to come out on my busiest day? I have so many responsibilities on my schedule. I am realizing a couple of details about myself. I have become dependent on the money I have saved up. I don't want to see it dissipate down to Zero. Therefore I cannot quit my current job...I have this dilemma at some point almost everday. Yeah I know, I only work three times a week and it's quite spread out...sort of... but I just cannot stand having to structure myself within the two brackets or the schedule school has provided me with and the schedule work has given me. Well unfortunately I must attend to what I have been scheduled for today. Farewell.